wassup;

Monday, December 03, 2007 ; 18:48♥

why must this worst of all things befell on me.
i'm feeling as though the sky is falling on me, can't take it anymore.
i'll burst into tears anytime. i've been putting up this nonsense seriously for too long.
but why when i really wanna cry, i couldn't cry. you've been like a shadow in me, in my thoughts, everywhere in mind; where all i could think is you. you've got a her yourself now, what about me?
i long knew you gonna leave me alone now like fuck, how could you, how could you. tell me what have you promised me, i can still remember clearly as it was. now i know, you've cleaned the whole of your mind.

i tried not to talk to you like the way we were in the past, cos i know the more i talk to you, the higher the cliff i'll fall down to. it was hard, i struggled hard you didnt know. now when you're gone, i'm picking up the pieces myself, you're selfish.

i need to cry, but i've been trying to hard to cry, and numb was what i turned to. maybe the only way i can feel better is to stay with you like in the past, which is impossible for now. you'll never know my dejections. i feel miserable thru the days we didnt communicate, you dont know how i'm feeling anymore. cos you'll never care to ask about my feelings, never again...

now that it's all said and done, i can't believe you were the one; who built me up and tore me down, like an old abandoned house.