wassup;

Tuesday, August 26, 2008 ; 02:42♥

now the show had ended, i'm back to my old self again!
oh wait.
ive learnt quite a lot of cantonese in the drama!
HAHAHAHA. it runs in my blood!

i am stressed now certainly, due to uncomprehensible monetary reasons.
felt so fucked up now yes?
fucked up.

i am meeting sally tomorrow.
kinda excited though.
ask me why?
cos, everyone is always too busy, for me.
i'm like just an extra in life.
feeling very sick of living.
i have many friends, but not all are genuine close friends.
but come to think of it, one of them is.

i have a best friend. very best.
now we're in different polytechnics, and she is working a part time,
she can't, like how she used to, cough up enough time to hang out with me.
no longer.

when school starts, we're both busy with school work.
when exam commences, we're both focusing and not contacting.
when i want to chat with her on msn, she's always away.
when i call her, she's always busy.
when it is weekend, she works.
when it's holidays, she works.

it could no longer be the times whereby we go out almost everyday.

i miss this goody friend.
the only one who can really really understand me.

next thing's next!
i have so many things on mind,
and i seriously feel like, ought to say it all out.
i don't care if i will blurt it out when i can talk in my dream.
some things in life,
well, don't expect too much out of it.
in the end, it won't benefit you more than you stay the way you are.

mankind; the individual.
simply could be describable as selfish.
oh yes, everyone is.
your special someone?
oh. don't tell me your special someone is one who isin't selfish, please.

from the perspective of yourself as a friend, think carefully.
if your friend if yours have a gf/ bf, who treats each other very very well, hangs out ONLY between the both of them, and you think that they're pleasantly sweet.
think again.
their friends and families aren't dead, are they?
you might say, its not as if they are the only human beings on Earth, right?

not trying to pin point down on anyone.
but this could lead to the sinking of friendship and affect family ties.
i don't think i've said anything wrong, and i can make a repetition of this.

it's just that, don't regret when things goes awry cos, till then, when you realise, it's already too late.

should i talk more further down?

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see, i'm always not contented with life.
are you?